This time two years ago, Ironman blues were setting in. I remember laying in bed feeling so down and having no idea why because nobody warned me. This time around, I was prepared. Yes, I know some of you are going to laugh at me because you already think I'm super anal but I don't care. A few weeks before the race, I made two lists....one had home projects and the other had future races. This morning when I woke up, I reviewed my lists when I felt the blues coming on. See? Sometimes being prepared is a very good thing.
I was looking at pictures from the race again and was glad to see the run pictures my family got showed me looking a lot better than I felt. When I saw the pictures my first thought was, "well that girls looks pretty good...why didn't she run her sub 5hr marathon". Bad Jenny! Maybe I looked okay but that was only because my family was there and I was smiling and happy to see them. I remember very well how I felt that day....stir fried crap.
I had written my predicted times for each part of the race and put them on a sticky note on the fridge. I had to take it down yesterday because it made me sad to have the reminder that I didn't hit my goals. The finish range I had in my head was something like 13:56 (based on my last half iron) to 14:30. I always knew that meant I was going to need a "best case" scenario which is not what I got on Saturday. As I've said countless times, I'm so happy that I survived this race. I've seen the DNF rate was nearly 16% which is almost 10% higher than normal DNF rates at Ironman races. Wow!
Immediately after the race I told Keith and most people standing around that I was done with Ironman Texas. In fact, I told Colin & Kerry that on the run course as we were approaching mile 22 I think. I later told Keith I thought that I may be done with Ironman completely. As it typically goes though, I find myself rethinking those statements. I'm definitely not done with Ironman. I want to finish a race in under 15 hours and I KNOW I can do it. I have absolutely, positively no doubts I can do it. I think the question I'm asking myself is whether or not I can do it at Ironman Texas? I want to be able to do it mainly because this is a hometown race and having my family and friends there is a HUGE boost for me. I can't imagine doing a race outside of Texas where I may not have the support I have had here. I don't view Ironman Texas in quite the same way I viewed Galveston 70.3 but I do view it as a race I want to conquer. What the hell is wrong with me? Part of me says be grateful I've survived two of them and find a race in a cooler climate. Then the other part of me is saying that I've raced in some of the toughest conditions and survived....3rd times a charm!!! Ugh, this sport is too addictive for my addictive personality!
I'm so glad I took today off from work. There is no way I can go sit at a desk all day. I plan on taking it easy today and maybe even wear some of my sweet Finisher's gear. :) Yeah, I'm THAT girl.